Positive Phototropism

Plants need sunlight to grow. It is an indisputable fact. And I...I need it to feel warm, inside out.

My first interview (probably not my last I hope T_T) will be on Valentine's Day at 2pm. And my Sun isn't shining on my head...depressing fact. Hell, but it is still very disheartening. In a way. Sorta.

Cannot get a simple picture to express positive phototropism-lah. Not sunlight but still light what.

Ugh, browsing through those so-called helpful forums is only making matters worst. Not helpful at all wtf. Reading about others' experiences was like sowing some rainy clouds over my head. You know, together with what cumulonimbus and omnibus clouds wtf. Which are basically thunderstorm clouds I think. Ugh.

I want my Sun back. Oh Sun, where art thou? (Gaya bahasa Shakespearean)

I may not have perfect or nearly-perfect scores to boast about but hell, I really wanted to talk to the alumnus because it made me feel...erm, how should I describe the exhilaration and excitement that I got each time I talked about college/university lives...especially those in overseas.

Just a month ago, I was talking to my cousin about her dorm life in Aussies. Her eyes were sparkling (at least I thought so) while she was telling me about the cultural differences which she had to endure for the first few months there. Haha...I remembered laughing to myself secretly when she kept on telling me about how dorms are for Aussie dorks (no offense) and that her roommates were literally walking in and out of their room naked. Haha. Some people will love this. I knew it =)

And about two years ago, I was chatting with another cousin of mine, who was studying in one of the local universities. Back then, she was telling me how important STPM was because mainly what you've studied for STPM would be EXTREMELY useful when university life begins. And oh, we also chatted about the "bahasa rojak" issue during her lectures and how some students who seemed to be missing in action during the semester and ended up repeating...LOL...I was like wtf.

Also during the session at KL Sentral - Cornell, MIT and Princeton (once upon my dream school too you know) were the topics. I was awed.

Shit-lah.

Reminiscing all these made me feel even worse. *muka nak nangis dah*