A New Dawn

Firstly, haha...punk-ed ya' all...

WARNING: EXTREMELY LONG POST!

A New Dawn, huh? Well, I think that it's fairly important for me to tell myself that this is the New Dawn of my life. Now, why is that so?

First and foremost, I am getting older. O. L. D. E. R. And, I actually kinda freaked out when 2009 approached just this early January. Erm, is this some kind of age-ripening phobia? Jeez...I really don't know. The feeling was like, man, I'm getting older...what if I didn't behave like an ordinary nineteen year-old? What if I'm actually a nine year-old kid, stuck in the body of a nineteen year-old? And what if people find that I'm such a childish lass?

Sigh. That's how complicated I could get sometimes. Hmmm...

Nevertheless, I decided to abandon my previous blog just a couple of days ago to set up this new one. Nope, I may not have a solid reason behind my action (of abandoning it) but hey, who says you need to have a reason to do so? Besides, the urge was just so strong that it was almost impossible for me to even mumble a simple NO. Ok, I may sound so desperate and exaggerating at the same time but hell, that's so me...hehe. And hey Alicia, I kept my promise =)

The past three or four months have been a ride to Hell, literally. I went through this really terrible torment of writers' blocks, tremendous emo-ness, self-doubts, low morale as well as some Biology-nerves-cracking-revision-pig-out. Seriously. I'm glad that the whole ordeal has finally come to a rather satisfying end. I survived; this is the most important of them all.

At this point, I try not to look into the past anymore (what I have done etc). What's done is done; no point peeping into this inglorious chapter in my life. I am looking forward and beyond the endless horizons right in front of my eyes. I am looking forward to some brand new challenges in my life; in my academics, extracurricular pursuits and spiritual journey. I think of all the things that I can accomplish now using my bare hands and sweat (which means more deodorant...haha, gotcha!).

As a part of the New Dawn, I have chosen to take up three reading courses this semester - Microeconomics, US History II and World Religion. I'm not exceptionally on good terms with reading subjects. Just look at my high school transcripts - Biology and Sejarah - they are always accompanied by an A2 or a B. Could be rather demoralizing at times, but I still went on to achieve an A1 for my SPM what. Haha. Yet, I've made up my mind that I shall be doing everything that I am capable of to ensure sweet successes in these courses (like cutting down on TV and on-lining). No way I'll be commiting suicide with them.

In another three months later, my fate for the other half of the Bull's Year will be revealed. I do not know whether I'll be swimming among happy guppies or be drowning in a pool of tears. I try to prevent myself from developing any sorts of prescient knowledge about my fate (no Tarot-reading or palm-reading for that matter) although I know I'll be more than glad to be swimming among those colorful guppies while fishing for salmons among Inuits. Haha...got what I mean?

Last but not least, thank you for reading through this longest post of mine thus far (some more got no pictures to feed your visual needs...sigh). I hope I have not bored you guys to death with my peculiar metaphors what-so-ever. And please, I hope you guys can drop me some comments (basically, I think there's only two people following my blog - Shen and Alicia - thanks!) and let me know what you guys think. However, I also hoped that for every word mentioned in this blog, it could only be reproduced within the blogosphere...ain't it weird that people start to "reproduce" what you've said in this virtual platform in the real world?

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!

PS: More wtfs will be appearing sooner or later. So, please bear with it =)